To Be

The year ended in a blur of joy and pain.  My Christmas Eve found me in the ER.  After six hours, they released me with pain meds and an ultrasound that showed multiple gall stones.  I have an appointment with a surgeon to determine if surgery is required.  It wasn't great timing, kind of put a damper on the festivities for me. 

So, my year of JOY ended in a bit of trauma.  But, it slowed me down and I had some time to think about what I'd like to focus on this year. 

 
        What would I like to BE?
        Where would I like to BE at the end of this year?
        What do I want to BE involved in?
        What do I want to BEgin this year?

 

The word BE stuck in my head.  I thought about how I'd like to BE intentional about my life, intentional with my relationships, intentional with my passions, intentional with God.  Sometimes I feel like I'm just existing, that I haven't made a mark.  It's my intention this year to just BE, whatever it is that God wants me to BE.